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How many people can one hope to change or influence in their life? Or even make some sort of impact? More than you would think probably. I know countless people have helped shape what I think and who've I've become. Through HS I was a bit of a lazy bum, only two things interested me. Music and my gf. Luckly music kept me in school and I actually tried to graduate a year early because I detested school so much. I could have done it too. But my band director convinced me to stay my senior year. A good idea now that I think back about it. But it was just a simple suggestion, yet it help impact my life in a significant way. Someone told me I was a funny kid in middle school, now I always try and make people smile. Even after everything I had experienced, yet another small coment by someone. But it affected me in a major way. How bout those hurtful things kids tell each other, thats just mean everything you has an effect. whether its just for you or it includes other it doesn't matter. There is always an eccect. Just remember that when ever you feel to urge to ridicule someone. Or threaten someones life. It can hurt and does effect them in a way. Even those simple comments.

Have you ever just had some sort of nameless tune running through your head? One that just won't disappear, and always edges its way into your concious thoughts? Like an annoying insect that just won't leave you alone? Hmmmmmmm...doesn't sound like much fun now does it? But this is the kicker, I like this nameless tune. I think the most annoying part of it is the fact that I like it. I like to hum it, I groove to it in my head. I think the part I detest is the fact that I don't have the slightest idea what this song is. That would rule if I had a name or a couple of lyrics for it. Such is life though I guess. Can't have it all, can you? Even when you think you do, you secretly crave more. That's why I feel sorry for the power hungry CEOs of the world. They will never have enough and that's the only thing that drives them. They lust for more no matter how much they have. Like a bottomless pit of greed. Just devouring everything and wanting more, never sated. That would just blow. I would hate to never be content, to never sit back and enjoy what I have gotten in life. To endlessly lust for more. How ugly would that be? Hopefully most of us will be spared that horrid fate.

One hell of a cosmic joke. That's how a friend of mine referred to her life. Can a life be nothing more than just a joke or mistake? I've never even entertained that thought for a moment. Life has always been precious to me. I've had a couple experiences that have taught me that. As well as a couple expriences that have shown me nobody is here by mistake. I myself was just a "mistake" but had my life been ended or had I not been a "mistake" I'm sure a lot of wouldn't have noticed, but they probably would have never had the same experiences or seen the world through my eyes. Granted I'm not trying to sound like I've saved countless lives through my presense. But I'm sure I have shown some people a different perspective, maybe even given them a new outlook? Or even just a smile on a bad day. I would like to know I am making some sort of impact on people I meet. Helping make the quality of life better one smile at a time. My new motto. Or maybe I should make it the official Robert slogan. ©2000 Heh, I'm sure someone's used it before, but now it belongs to me!

Muhahahahahaha. Well that doesn't quite fit does it? A meglomaniac who wants to brighten your day? I guess I could be the frst. A trailblazer of sorts. The Kind Meglomaniac Coalition. KMC, not to be confused with KFC. We would rule the world through warm fuzzies. WOW! I hadn't realized being delerious at work could be so daunting or is it mind altering? All I know is this is just a sample of what goes on in my mind. Imagine what else is floating around.

Living life seems to be almost a chore for some people. Why? Isn't life about finding yourself and finding joy? I'm pretty sure it wasn't meant to be some sort of tedious task which we dread facing everyday. Granted it can be the daily grind. But that's what's so beautiful about life. You change it, modify it, and make it what you want. It is hard, but all things worth gaining are hard work, right? Or so they say. What do "they" know anyway? BASTARDS! Gimmie my money. Oh wow, where was I goin with that? Who knows, I guess I can be a bit unstable at times. Or Not! You decide.

Anyways on with my orginal though. Work hard, enjoy the fruits of your labors, yes? One would think so, but get rich quick seems to be so much easier. I often wonder if I'd be able to pull off something like that, or think like these crooks who think of new ways to swindle someone and make crime easier. Some of these guys should get a hearty pat on the back as we lock them up. I would never think of half the scams or methods they use. These guys are ingenius. Imagine if they actually ued their ingeniuity to help humanity, rather than take advantage of it. Leaps and bounds would be made towards the betterment of humanity. So hug yer local crook and congradulate them on a great plan, then turn em in. We just need more people trying to make humanity better. Until then all I can do is improve myself. And make those stinkin BASTARDS give me my money. END THOUGHT.

I often wonder what's going through people's minds when they first meet me. Are they scared of the fruit loop they've just introduced themselves too? Or perhaps they wonder how a blight on society, like myself can possibly survive. I know my first thought, it never seems to change, are they always like this? WHether or not I like them or they are idiots I wonder if they always act like this n real life. I suppose this comes from the observation of so many people being two faced. Nice one moment, not so nice when you turn yer back. *chuckle* As I write these words I think of my ex gf. Truer words could not be said of her. I don't think she was ever totaly honest with anybody around her. Normally people would say including me, but I think I would have to say especially me. I don't think she was ever "honest" with me. I know thats a cruel and mean thing to say, but....It's "honest". *smirk* I guess I'm talking about this because I don't like to be lied too. And a good friend did that to me. That is a bit angering for one who is almost always brutally honest.

I have almost never lied in my entire life. I used to make a living out of it before but now I've reformed. But if I don't lie to these people shouldn't I expect that in return? Or am I expecting too much? Perhaps I'm trying to have people live up to standards that I know they can't live up too. The main reason this came up though was at the end of a call at work, the customer told me how much he appreciated my honesty. Appearantly he called before and gotten the run around, and I had just told him the simple truth. Not really a hard thing to do, at least not hard in my warped world. But maybe in return he will be more hoest with others. Granted the truth can get you in trouble at times, but if it does get you in trouble, why do it? Is the risk really worth it? I don't know, some risks just seem unessesary. I really don't know where this is going anymore or even what my point was, but that just seems to my genral state of mind lately. I don't know where its goin, but as long as it keeps going I guess I can't complain.